1. |
||||
|
instrumental
|
||||
2. |
||||
|
I remain awake for days
living in the dismal darkness
that dwells only in my room
I don't eat or sleep
spending my days just thinking about you
I thought things would get easier
but it feels like forever
since you held me close
in the comfort of your love
I long for those nights
spent in your arms
but now you're gone
and I feel nothing
numb to it all
because I've felt it all before...
|
||||
3. |
How can I Unmiss you?...
05:30
|
|||
|
I stare at this picture for hours
I remember that night we spent hours,
laughing in the parking lot
exchanging hugs and laughter
after I left, you couldn't let go of my hand
now it's all over
what we had, died
it was never real to you
or so it seems
that's what you said to me
it's all over
and I'm left alone
no thoughts escape my mind
I'm left broken once again...
|
||||
4. |
No Words Left to say
06:43
|
|||
|
It's crazy to think about...
looking back to the times we'd laugh and cry
the nights we spent in each others arms
it's crazy to think after all we've been through
that it really meant nothing to you
sorry... it's my fault
I caught it all a little fast...
as I stare within this dark room
a pale light reaches through,
the fabrics of my curtains
that have stretched across my window
it's luminescent glow, blinds me
as it intertwines with my vision
like your eyes once did
pale like your skin, blue like your eyes
blinded by the emotions you'd show
deceived by all your affection and words
but your true feelings
you had kept inside
you felt nothing at all for me
blade to my skin
pills down my throat
now I'll sleep forever
you left me so alone
in this void you created all for me
I knew you was leaving
but I couldn't accept it
until you finally told me
I didn't want to know you were leaving
I didn't want to feel all alone once again...
|
||||
5. |
Alone in This World
04:37
|
|||
|
I'm alone in this room
sitting down, staring at the ceiling
for only a tear to be caught
in my open palm
that same palm that was once held
I'll paint the sky
I'll make it rain into the sink
drowning in all empty feelings
soon enough there'll be nothing left of me
get a little deeper, go to sleep
never wake up again
on that day
my heart got crushed
I swore I'd isolate myself
hide it all off
all my feelings, all my love
since that day I got replaced
living in an empty bed
wishing it could be occupied
with another
but deep down I know
that'll never happen
not again
not ever again...
|
||||
6. |
||||
|
I sink into a thousand dreams
and think of you
I stared behind this frozen window
and watched you disappear
gradually and slowly
a part of me died that day
that same part I spent years
trying to find
and now you're gone
and I'm on my own
will you be there when I'm gone?
or will I never know?
I guess it doesn't matter
you don't love me anyway
as much as it hurts
I wish you all the happiness
even if that's without me
I'm sorry I wasn't enough
for your love...
goodbye my love...
|
||||
7. |
||||
|
I'm here, sitting on the shower floor
my eyes lost in each fragment
as my blood escapes from my arms
I once longed to see you
now the longing is gone
and my heart is dead
and our dreams vanished
just like that...
vanished in a moment...
love, or what I thought was love
that never really existed, did it?
fully focused on shutting me out
it was all about you
while I was left rotting in my bed
with bleeding arms
this isn't about what we could have been
it's about the feelings you brung
and the trust you killed
and now that I feel nothing
I'll dream every memory away
maybe that way you'll finally see
how much it hurt
when you shut me out
all the lovebombing, all the silence
and for what?
and while I'm gone
with sad tears staining my heart
I abandoned my hope...
from losing myself
and you abandoned me...
just to hurt me more
I'll never be the same..
|
||||
8. |
||||
|
days of apathy
fills my eyes
fills my lungs
I reach out for the sun
as I once did for you
and as each day passes
I sit upon my bed
stare within the empty space
that you've left behind
a single raindrop presses against the window
like every tear pressed against my cheek
it's all over now...
now I'm left with only faint memories
I'm left with no escape
no way to contain my thoughts
you left me with no warmth inside
love has died
and grief has come to take
what was left of my heart
I've swallowed some pills
and overused my meds
blade to my wrist
and fall asleep
I've left my final letter beside me
"I wish you all the happiness
even if that's without me..."
"and with no brighter days
I've let darkness take me away"
"before you finish reading; just remember
if I never wake up again
...please remember I once loved you..."
|
||||
9. |
Love(lorn)
06:35
|
|||
|
days have become restless
and nights seem to have no end
so I spend each minute
staring at photographs of us
so many memories they hold
I remember those days
of endless happiness
as you'd hold me close
when our time was simpler
before you left me
with no warmth left inside
you left with your replacement for me
I miss those days
I've not really felt anything since
other than longing and despair
maybe soon my time will come
until then I'll live
with every waking moment
thinking about you
I used to breathe for you
now I wake
and there's no reason to breathe
now that you're gone
the stars are dead
no more sunrises left
I reached my end
when I was left alone
|
||||
10. |
||||
|
After I lay down to sleep
I'm met with apparitions
ones that haunt me
both in my sleep, and in the day
your words cut deeper
than the lacerations on my body
I remember when you'd
rest your head against my thighs
and told me how you were so in love
I guess I was once in love too
but not anymore
it still hurts
but not the way you'd think
does it ever hit you?
that sudden moment of realisation...
that with everything we've been through
how it all means nothing
because I do... all the time
no friendship, no love
we'd been through so much
only to come out as nothing
...but strangers
with lots of beautiful memories...
|
||||
11. |
I'm a Failure
03:40
|
|||
|
I miss the days spent
in another's arms
days where I'd be so happy
and full of joy
and like everything
it had to come to an end
my happiness, my joy
my sleep died soon after
all the happiness in the world
feels so far out of reach
I guess I may never know
what that's like again
to be held in the arms of another
|
||||
12. |
||||
|
When I lay my head down to sleep
after I close my eyes
I always wonder if it will be the final time
and since I've been dreaming it would be for years
tonight I'll make my dreams come true
I'll take my medicine at once
and overdose in my sleep..
all my belongings you can keep
or throw away like you've done before
my only last wish is that you see my body
and cry with your hand over your mouth
you'll be the first to find me
and the last to care..
|
||||
13. |
Goodbye... My Love...
07:48
|
|||
|
I once watched the stars with you
before it all fell apart
those nights you held me close
feels so far from my reach
I felt it too
that moment our spark
lost all it's light
I thought we could have made it
but once again I was wrong
our brightest moments
snuffed out by the clouds
that filled our hearts
as I wait for you
one last time
my final letters are written
and this time I know what's to be done
no more holding back
no more mistakes
you were once the only light in my life
and now we must part ways
and live my life away from you
goodbye... my love...
|
||||
Cold July UK
one woman romantic dsbm
If you like Cold July, you may also like:
In advance of their November tour, catch up on the latest shredder from atmospheric black metal band Ghost Bath.
go to album
Everyone’s favorite cosmic black metal band returns, with a 16-minute opus that doubles down on industrial grind.
go to album
The new EP from atmospheric black metal masters Mesarthim finds them more triumphant and symphonic than ever.
go to album
Interstellar metal explorers Mesarthim return with a harrowing track that showcases their symphonic side.
go to album
Worldless
by The Sun’s Journey Through The Night
featured on Bandcamp Radio Aug 4, 2023
go to album
Altäre der Vergänglichkeit
by Wrack
Crushing blackened doom from this German band that counterbalances blinding fury with moments of surprising, melancholy melody.
go to album
Tokyo band contrast black metal's brutal complexity with shoegaze's abyssal grandeur, resulting in an LP that feels crushing, yet infinite.
go to album
